Earlier today, I remembered a dream I had earlier this week. I was dreaming about a time when my dog had been running around while hooked to our gate and, inadvertently, wrapped her long leash around the leg of a chair. There was no longer any room for her to run, and her cries turned into loud howls as she tried to leap harder and harder to get free and run across the lawn. What made me chuckle about remembering this is when I tried to help her to get free, the only way to do do it was to push her tiny body the opposite direction of the way in which she had wound herself. This made her even more upset, and made it quite time consuming...
Do you know what I think God is like? I think God is like me unwinding my poor little dog. I think that sometimes we seem to be moving in the opposite direction of what we feel is right, but really it is the only way to get where we are going. I believe God is like my hand comforting my dog, reassuring her that I know best and to just trust me, as I could see something she could not. The more resistance we give, the longer it will take to get where we are going. Everything makes sense and happens for a reason in it's own time and way. But if we don't let go and do the right things, we will miss the beauty of it all.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
What Now...?
Technically, I my 15 drop therapy is now complete. Instead of stopping here, I've decided to step things up a notch and attempt 15 drops 3x daily. I started this 3 days ago with no problems initially, however, yesterday I got a rude awakening. I was ill with severe diarrhea all day long, the nausea was unbearable, and I had almost no energy. What happened? Well for starters, I didn't eat very much prior to taking my dose because I was feeling cocky, second, I didn't eat much afterwards either, and third, jumping into my 3x daily dose at 15/15/15 may have been too aggressive.
Beginning tomorrow, my therapy start 15/5/15, and I will increase the second dose by one drop daily. I did not begin this therapy today, as I felt I needed to give my system a rest, however, I am still going to do my 2x daily dosages today. My energy has picked up nicely, and I'm grateful to not be camped in the loo. I consider this a reminder of how we need to take these things slow. One "good" thing that came out of this is I actually dropped 5 pounds, lol.
Beginning tomorrow, my therapy start 15/5/15, and I will increase the second dose by one drop daily. I did not begin this therapy today, as I felt I needed to give my system a rest, however, I am still going to do my 2x daily dosages today. My energy has picked up nicely, and I'm grateful to not be camped in the loo. I consider this a reminder of how we need to take these things slow. One "good" thing that came out of this is I actually dropped 5 pounds, lol.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Day 18 of 21 - 15 Drops
I've not posted anything here in about a week now, and part of the reason for that is I've been doing great. I've not had any negative side effects, and and I don't even have to eat much before drinking it. It honestly brings tears to my eyes when I think about what I've had to endure and where I am now.
What I didn't anticipate is being afraid to stop my therapy and go down to a maintenance dose. I have been outbreak-free for nearly 2 months now, and I am scared to death of having to deal with another outbreak, should my therapy need to go on a bit longer. I know this may not sound like a big deal to some, but I can't imagine going back to that place of leg and hip pains, back aches, painful showers, and the total humiliation of wondering if anyone knows what's wrong with me. I never want to feel dirty again. If I could compare it to something, I would say stopping MMS right now almost feels like how a totally healthy person would feel being told they have a 50/50 chance of being infected with herpes from leaving the house. I'm terrified and I admit it.
So, I've decided to apply MMS topically for one week, and starting tomorrow, I will take it 3 times daily for 2 weeks. This is not something that was deemed necessary in any of the literature, this is purely my paranoia. Up until now, I have taken a modest approach in taking MMS, which is definitely the secret to my success in using it. However, now that I am able to take 15 drops twice daily with no negative side effects at all, I reckon now would be a great time to step it up one more notch to ensure mr. herpster is gone for good!
So just to explain what I did in regards to applying MMS topically. Per the instructions, I put 10 drops Citric Acid in a cup and added 2 drops MMS. I let it sit for 3 minutes, then applied a thin application to my usual "problem zones". The instructions say to leave it on for about 30 secs - 1 minute. I left it on for about a minute. Because of the smell, I was afraid my skin might burn off, but the smell is quite deceiving I assure you, lol. I felt nothing until it was time to wash it off, and even then it was only a mild sting, which was nothing compared to the pure HELL I endured while using Apple Cidar vinegar!
What I didn't anticipate is being afraid to stop my therapy and go down to a maintenance dose. I have been outbreak-free for nearly 2 months now, and I am scared to death of having to deal with another outbreak, should my therapy need to go on a bit longer. I know this may not sound like a big deal to some, but I can't imagine going back to that place of leg and hip pains, back aches, painful showers, and the total humiliation of wondering if anyone knows what's wrong with me. I never want to feel dirty again. If I could compare it to something, I would say stopping MMS right now almost feels like how a totally healthy person would feel being told they have a 50/50 chance of being infected with herpes from leaving the house. I'm terrified and I admit it.
So, I've decided to apply MMS topically for one week, and starting tomorrow, I will take it 3 times daily for 2 weeks. This is not something that was deemed necessary in any of the literature, this is purely my paranoia. Up until now, I have taken a modest approach in taking MMS, which is definitely the secret to my success in using it. However, now that I am able to take 15 drops twice daily with no negative side effects at all, I reckon now would be a great time to step it up one more notch to ensure mr. herpster is gone for good!
So just to explain what I did in regards to applying MMS topically. Per the instructions, I put 10 drops Citric Acid in a cup and added 2 drops MMS. I let it sit for 3 minutes, then applied a thin application to my usual "problem zones". The instructions say to leave it on for about 30 secs - 1 minute. I left it on for about a minute. Because of the smell, I was afraid my skin might burn off, but the smell is quite deceiving I assure you, lol. I felt nothing until it was time to wash it off, and even then it was only a mild sting, which was nothing compared to the pure HELL I endured while using Apple Cidar vinegar!
Thursday, January 8, 2009
Day 6 of 21 - 15 Drops
I am now about to complete my first week at 15 drops once again, and have had a rough time dealing with being ill after NYE. First, as I mentioned before, it's not a very good idea to drink large quantities of alcohol while taking MMS or doing any sort of detox. It completely throws your body out of whack. That said, I reckon I would have still been mostly ok had I not screwed up my dosages the previous week or so...
I started out having the usual side effects when getting used to a higher dose, which was not fun at all (diarrhea, some cramping, feeling "icky"). On top of that, I had to also deal with having a horrible cold and menstral cramps. I was thinking, the only "bright" side to all of this is that I had no outbreak, then it dawned on me that perhaps that small pain in my right knee joint and my cold-like symptoms were indeed an outbreak attempting to break it's way through. Regardless, there was no actual outbreak in the end, and I'm doing a lot better. This is very significant because in the past my monthly cycle was always accompanied by an outbreak.
The effects lasted about 3 days, but I'm still not out of the woods. I still have very mild cramps and my belly is making some serious music (gas - very sexy), but ultimately I'm feeling quite good. Unfortunately, my cold was too far gone, so it will take some time for my chest to clear out. I know I'm giving some bad visuals here, but I reckon it's more important to just be honest so anyone reading this knows what to expect. Some of the side effects I've experienced were no walk in the park, but on the flip side, I'm glad I worked my way through it because I do feel far more healthy.
I started out having the usual side effects when getting used to a higher dose, which was not fun at all (diarrhea, some cramping, feeling "icky"). On top of that, I had to also deal with having a horrible cold and menstral cramps. I was thinking, the only "bright" side to all of this is that I had no outbreak, then it dawned on me that perhaps that small pain in my right knee joint and my cold-like symptoms were indeed an outbreak attempting to break it's way through. Regardless, there was no actual outbreak in the end, and I'm doing a lot better. This is very significant because in the past my monthly cycle was always accompanied by an outbreak.
The effects lasted about 3 days, but I'm still not out of the woods. I still have very mild cramps and my belly is making some serious music (gas - very sexy), but ultimately I'm feeling quite good. Unfortunately, my cold was too far gone, so it will take some time for my chest to clear out. I know I'm giving some bad visuals here, but I reckon it's more important to just be honest so anyone reading this knows what to expect. Some of the side effects I've experienced were no walk in the park, but on the flip side, I'm glad I worked my way through it because I do feel far more healthy.
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Update - Back to Week 1 at 15 drops (extension)
UPDATE - So a few of the side effects of MMS returned after taking it with Apple Juice, confirming that I was compromising my dosages by using Blueberry Juice... Bugger!
I was initially quite tired and experienced mild diarrhea, and very mild tummy aches, however, I feel ok now and the good news is my throat does not hurt anymore. While it is still scratchy, it appears to be on the mend. I'm considering this a lesson learned, and I will extend my 15 drop therapy to ensure I get full benefits. I had initially intended to do 15 drops for 3 weeks, which would've come to a close about 2 weeks from now. Now I have decided to start from scratch and call this Day One of my 15 drop therapy, which I will do for 3 weeks starting today. Depending on how I feel 3 weeks from now, I may extend an additional week.
To all reading this, drinking juices that contain Vitamin C is a big no-no with MMS. It will weaken your dose and you will not receive the full cleansing benefits. Keep in mind that Absorbic Acid and Citric Acid are in the same family and also have to be avoided for at least 2-3 hours before and after dosages. I made this mistake because, while I looked at the vitamins on the label, I forgot to look at the ingredients. Oh well... Week 1, lol.
I was initially quite tired and experienced mild diarrhea, and very mild tummy aches, however, I feel ok now and the good news is my throat does not hurt anymore. While it is still scratchy, it appears to be on the mend. I'm considering this a lesson learned, and I will extend my 15 drop therapy to ensure I get full benefits. I had initially intended to do 15 drops for 3 weeks, which would've come to a close about 2 weeks from now. Now I have decided to start from scratch and call this Day One of my 15 drop therapy, which I will do for 3 weeks starting today. Depending on how I feel 3 weeks from now, I may extend an additional week.
To all reading this, drinking juices that contain Vitamin C is a big no-no with MMS. It will weaken your dose and you will not receive the full cleansing benefits. Keep in mind that Absorbic Acid and Citric Acid are in the same family and also have to be avoided for at least 2-3 hours before and after dosages. I made this mistake because, while I looked at the vitamins on the label, I forgot to look at the ingredients. Oh well... Week 1, lol.
Week 2 - 15 Drop Therapy MMS
Per an earlier post today on the HUB..... After all the partying on NYE, combined with skipping my evening dose of MMS that evening and getting very little sleep 2 nights in a row, I came down with a sore throat. Yesterday, I also noticed a slight pain in the joint of my knee, and today I feel slightly icky. I cannot tell if it is my monthly cycle (due Tues.), my body fighting off a cold due to lack of proper rest and alcohol, or a possible outbreak (pseudo or otherwise)... or possibly all of the above.
I had been combining MMS with Blueberry Juice while at the 15 drop level, and just realised it has Citric Acid in the ingredients. I have begun to wonder if I am compromising my dosages. So I have switched to Apple Juice, and will add another week to my 15 drop therapy. After this morning's dose, my throat is feeling better, but it is too soon to tell. I will keep you all posted.
I had been combining MMS with Blueberry Juice while at the 15 drop level, and just realised it has Citric Acid in the ingredients. I have begun to wonder if I am compromising my dosages. So I have switched to Apple Juice, and will add another week to my 15 drop therapy. After this morning's dose, my throat is feeling better, but it is too soon to tell. I will keep you all posted.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New Year's Day
Well it's New Year's Day, and I believe I have started the new year right; herpes free! Last night I had no choice but to skip my evening dose of MMS, plus I drank a lot more than I have drank in a very long time, lol. I was sure I would pay for it dearly, but today there was nothing... not so much as a twinge. What a blessing indeed. For anyone reading this, I have copy and pasted part of a post I made earlier today to some other friends battling this disease. I hope this year is a wonderful year for you, and I will continue to post my progress. At this stage, I am still feeling great and all side effects have diminished. I am simply awaiting that final day of dosing so I can get retested!
Post from earlier today:
.... This hub brings a tear to my eye sometimes. Last night after we did the countdown, I wondered why I felt a twinge of disappointment... Then it dawned on me that aside from the usual drinking and men chasing skirts, there was something missing. We all have a tendency to forget how precious we really are. All of us, humans, birds, reptiles... We all fit together and matter. Never forget how much you matter, even if it's not obvious to you. We are all connected, and everything you do and think changes another step in the cosmos in the finest details, as the cosmos is in you. Here's to letting what we do matter in the best ways possible!
For some of us, going out will never be the same because once you become enlightened, there is no going back. But this is something to be embraced, so let's continue to get healed and spread the word!
Post from earlier today:
.... This hub brings a tear to my eye sometimes. Last night after we did the countdown, I wondered why I felt a twinge of disappointment... Then it dawned on me that aside from the usual drinking and men chasing skirts, there was something missing. We all have a tendency to forget how precious we really are. All of us, humans, birds, reptiles... We all fit together and matter. Never forget how much you matter, even if it's not obvious to you. We are all connected, and everything you do and think changes another step in the cosmos in the finest details, as the cosmos is in you. Here's to letting what we do matter in the best ways possible!
For some of us, going out will never be the same because once you become enlightened, there is no going back. But this is something to be embraced, so let's continue to get healed and spread the word!
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